Broken heart....and broken body.

Last week, on this day, my life changed. Let me tell you about it...

wed night around 9pm: that's when it all starts. Very, very sick...and off to the ER we go.

tests, tests, and more tests.

my husband so scared.

me...not with it at all, so not aware of whats happening.

Thursday at 5am: starting to get some scary tests results back.

1. we don't have a heartbeat on the baby.

2. my white blood count is thru the roof...which means major infection in my body

3. Priesthood blessings to keep me calm and safe

7am: I am bleeding internally. Not sure where this is coming from.

My husband, so so scared. but by my side every single second.

9am: another ultra sound and more tests

11:00: Dr's still trying to figure out whats going on....I'm getting worse and worse.

everyone can see it. I can't talk, I can't open my eyes, I can hardly breathe.

12:00: A radiologist, internal Dr, and my OB meet.

that is when they discover, after looking over all my tests and ultra sounds what is happening.

a few minutes later....

many Dr's in my room, papers being thrown at Jason to sign, prepping me for emergency surgery.

Another priesthood blessing, on the way to the OR. Thank you Dad.

I am pregnant with twins. One is stuck in my Fallopian tube...which burst and is causing internal bleeding. Which, at this point I am bleeding to death.

I lost 2500cc of blood in surgery....1/2 of my bodies blood.

Huge blood transfusion performed, and I'm alive.

I was watched over every second....I know this. I'm so very very grateful.

While my heart and body are broken, I'm still here for my kids and for Jason.

I am now home from a long hospital stay.....and so happy.

Thank you all for your prayers, phone calls, texts, flowers, dinners, etc etc.

I love you all.